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Friday, September 22nd, 2006
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i havent been here in soooooo long.
i don't know hwat to say.
LJ i so old.
so yeah
welcome back me
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 karl n' me
 peacocks were walking around everywhere! it was sweet! haha.
 on the train.. choo choo!!
 silly camels.
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Saturday, April 29th, 2006
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yeaayyy i got all my shhhtuff for prom. my dress, my shoes, and some jewlery. it will be just so much funi can't wait. :-)
i'm dying my hair right now.. hopefully it won't turn out poopy like last time. dark brown.. i'm waiting for summer to dye it blonde... eeee! lol. yeah.
umm.. i wanna take pictures today.. just because. so i'm gonna so it. then post them if i remember how to. so peace niggas!
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Thursday, April 20th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:58 pm. |
| Mood: |  chipper. | | Music: | Micheal Buble. |
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Official one year = Sunday :-D
He broke his foot.. which sucks.. but he makes a cute crip.
haha. :-)
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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
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| Time: | 6:24 pm. |
| Mood: | chipper. |
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Soccer started. And I'm finally happy. Ahh, winter is almost over and i can almost taste the summer rolling in. Soccer is going good, but it's pretty much taken over my life... once again. But that's a good thing cause i won't be sitting here on my ass eating every time i get bored. My legs are frigging gone, my thighs are are worst, but it's all good... it just means that they're getting stronger and bigger! yay.. i want thicker legs... i kow thats wierd but i hate my legs, they're too damn skinny. my calves look bigger too.. hehe, well i hope they do. God i'm such a corn ball, i'm talking about my legs.
This weekend is soccer. Scrimages in South Lyon all day.. it's gonna be freezing. Then on Tuesday, scrimages in Hartland. Should be sweet. Hopefully i make varsity... that would really suck ass if iwas on JV for three years in a row.. Phhffftt! So yeah.. next couple months should be cool.
FENTON GIRLS SOCCER!! WOOO!!
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| Time: | 8:02 pm. |
| Mood: |  scared. |
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I wish i was more open minded. And could talk about more things. A lot of people tell me I'm quiet, and I am. I don't know why. Like I think about it and i have no clue what the hell i'm thinking about when i'm not saying anything. Sometimes i'll be thinking about what people are talking about, and just laugh or make fun of it in my head. Sometimes i'll chime in but after i do i feel like i just said something so fucking retarded that i don't talk for another 20 min. I like to people watch a lot. And i think i just sit there and watch people.. they fasinate me for some reason. When people talk to me i listen, but sometimes what they say goes in ear and out the other. I don't know why. I think I think way too much. And i need to stop thinking and just live. Live in the moment and stop thinking about what's going to happen. I used to be like that. And i miss it. I'm going to try my hardest to go back to it. It's hard though, when you don' have a lot of people to talk to or hang out with. I try to make friends, but all the people i know are dumb. I want to move somewhere new and meet new people. Pretty much the only friends i have are dan and his friends.. oh and brett who i never really see all that much, and Al, i miss her. And the good times we had over the summer.
i want summer to be here. school ruins everything.. and stresses me out.
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Monday, February 6th, 2006
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"Im so sorry, a life lived to the fullest, gone and lost just like that, its so unfair, why did this have to happen right now, at 18 so young, full of promise, a full ride to florida state, nothing but a dream that never came true. with so much more to see, so much potential, everything he worked for the entire 18, all down the drain, and for what. nothing. he doesnt deserve this. why i ask? its so cruel and wrong. so close to me, but yet so far away, like a 2nd brother, i never imagined something like this, but now its here. and now hes gone. for you lucky few that met zach around fentown, you all liked him, he was a good person. and loved by many." - Dan Poyner
"Man Daniel, I cant believe his situations getting so outta control. Its hard to believe that a kid that I met, but berily know cant be controlled by himself, his brain is barely functional, yet this kid is so cold laid up in the hospitol most likely for the rest of his life. All the surgeries cant save his life. Theres a virus takin over his brain that even the top surgens in the USA have never even seen, so next time he goes under the knife, keep zach on your mind, and pray for his life, and pray he might someday have the right to gain back his life. Because it was so all of the sudden that these problems occurred and almost like this kid disappeared. . Man when you explained to me the great times that you had down in FLA and how he coulded emphasize enough to live you life day to day because you never know when god is gonna take it away. Dan you really touched man, You explained you wanted to cry sometimes which is ok no one needs to hold back tears for loved ones that are fighting fears so for you Daniel I can only say sorry, and hope your days get better while you pray for your cousin, because we all know and understand now that you love him. Man it sucks to realize that people that abuse life get to live, and the people that want to live have to face what they face, I guess its just destiny and its what god intends it to be so for all this heres a sorry from me." - Josh Jeffers
"Bless The Broken Road" -Rascal Flatts
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
"I want to say something. but i don't know what to say. i just sit here thinkin of the perfect thing to say but there isn't anything perfect to really say in a situation like this. i can't imagine what it's like to go through this. and i know you guys were really close. lol and i remeber meeting him a few years ago too, and he was really cool. and we were all havin a good time around the fire and he's sittin over there smokin on a cig. i could never imaginged that he could have this. and i cant see how something like this could happen to someone so close.. like you think nahh nothing like this could ever happen to someone in my family then when it does you just like freeze and can't do anything. and so i guess what im trying to say is im really sorry and and i want you to talk about it, i don't want to just be your "girl" i wanna be like your best friend too." -Murphy Jameyson
It's crazy how life can be. One minuite your having the time of your life next minuite your getting a phone call saying they only have a few more days to live. Some people are fortunate enough not to have anything like this happen. But the people who do just have to go through all the more trouble just to make things better again. Nothing can prepare you for something like this. I met Zach once and i will never have the privalage to ever meet him again and get to know him more. i think this is why i don't really believe in God because He doesn't do anything. Sure i believe in a higher power and that we all may go to a better place afetr we pass, but he doesn't do anything for us. we send prayers trying to make things better, but they never come/came true. We don't go to heaven to shake the hand of god, we all just end up in a hole for worm food. Also, Bullshit on he created the earth, scientific fact proves that. Sometimes you gotta believe in something though.. and i'm also not saying i believe in the devil or whatever, who the hell(haha) came up with that, i believe that good can happen from something bad. Maybe things do happen for a reason. but what i've learned the past 17 years i've been here, is, you can't trust anyone. not doctors, not god, not anyone, the only person you can trust is yourself. and you never know when your life could be up; the big clock goes out for good. You gotta keep fighting, you have to love, you gotta live, and cry. don't hold tears back for anything. everyone cries. you gotta face that death happens, everyone's going to die. it's hard thing to face, so just take each day by day, and take step by step to get through it. Another thing to get through it.. listen to Bob Marley. lol - he's my god. he makes me smile when i'm feelin' blue. :-) "Don't worry about a thing,'Cause every little thing gonna be all right. Singin' "Don't worry about a thing,'Cause every little thing gonna be all right! Rise up this mornin',Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou" Singin' "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right." Singin' "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"
I love you.
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Saturday, February 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 12:14 am. |
| Mood: |  anxious. | | Music: | afternoon delight. |
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Today, was a day of many emotions. At school i was my normal self - tired, annoyed of school, and just a happy go lucky normal day. After school - didn't see dan so that made me anxious for some reason - i always get anxious when i don't see him when i normaly do. Then i find out he's in trouble - and just kinda ruins my day - and i was irritable to anything my mom and brother would say. So all day i was just moping around the house until about 7:30 i started talking to Al, and we decide to have a girls night and go talk.
We went to Big Boy and just sat and talked. Bill was there. havn't seen him a long time. Lol - he and Al are going to get married. but Al and i talked about evrything, and it helped out. So i got in a better mood and called dan. So after big boy we went back to Al's and watched a lil bit of a movie, and took some pictures.
I stopped by Dan's house afterwards and he was still upset. So i tried to make him feel better. i hoped it worked, it seemed to. so he just layed there and pretty much fell asleep so i left.i hate when he's feeling down.. it makes me in a sad mood. but i made him smile and so it's all good. :-)
tomorrow - hopefully will be a better day.
i love you sweets!
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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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Monday, January 16th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:51 am. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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Today is my mom's birthdaty, and she's...old. hah! just kidding, she just turned 29. Tonight we're going out to eat at Sagebrush and it's gonna be sooooo good. yumm.
Wooo. This weekend started out sweet. Dan's birthday was Saturday, and on Friday i made dinner for him. It was cool, I had my room all pretty with the Al Green goin and candles lit, ughhh, it was romantic.. hehe. Dinner was... scrumptious - lol, i made chicken parmesan, and it was so good. Saturday we all went out to dinner at Lucky's and had steak, it was yummy. Then we went to the party store to pick up some Lotto tickets - hah, my big 18 stud can win some moneyyyy - but he didn't win anything.. poop. We went over to his house and hung out, then tony and Jeffers can over and we all chilled and had a good time. A lot of funny stuff happened, haha.. can't really put my finger on 'em tho. Then i went to bed cause i couldn't stay downstairs. oh well, i was tired.
Yesterday, i had a baby shower to go to. Aww, all the little baby clothes she got were soo cute, it makes you want to have a baby... eeeek! Not yet, wayyyy to early to be thinkin bout that. Ugh, but babies are so cute, hopefully i get to babysit little Jacks - that's gonna be his name. Aww.
I have some pictures from Dan's bithday...
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